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“Just saying out loud some of the things that were hurtful about childhood, the pain goes away and you realize everybody has stuff,” she said.

The 49-year-old has previously denied the allegations, calling them "very, very hurtful".

Ryan, 31, came back strong towards the end, landing some hurtful punches as blood streamed down Mayer's face following a clash of heads at the Fontainebleau.

She said that up until she was an adult, she had “received berating and vile text messages, verbal, public reamings with unbelievably hurtful words said to me that cannot be forgotten.”

She added that the "hateful messages", "death threats" and "unjust treatment I've received" were "not only hurtful" but also "serve as a reminder that racism is still very much embedded in British culture".